Archive for December, 2007

21
Dec
07

[don't] let it snow

I hate snow.

Sounds harsh, yes. But it’s truth. Sure, it looks pretty on the mountains, or glistening by the lake. But what good is it? It’s cold, icy, slushy, never pretty when melting. Did I mention how cold it was? I hate being cold. I’ve decided to rally against it and next year, we’re going to Florida or Hawaii for Christmas. Alas, as I speak [or type, as the case may be] there are flurries and piles atop my patio furniture and railings. At least it isn’t sticking to the ground just yet…we have a long drive in this crap tomorrow.

At any rate, I’m keeping myself well entertained indoors today. Work, cleaning, reading. A well balanced day, I think. I’m loving my break and the fact that I have time to read for fun. Here’s my list of books so far this break:

1. Wife in the Fast Lane, by Karen Quinn. Ok, so a little [or a lot] petty, but a good light read. Enough to amuse me for a ful 24-hour period. Yes, that is how long it took me to read. Quirky story about a work-aholic woman and her work-aholic husband and their spiral down after they lose their jobs, and [shock!] she decides she wants to be a mother after inheriting her now dead housekeeper’s granddaughter.

2. Bitter is the New Black, by Jen Lancaster. I thought I could spend and complain with the best of them, but Jen Lancaster offers a great deal of competition. Well, let’s begin with the title, shall we? The full title of the book is Bitter is the New Black: Confessions of a condescending, egomaniacal, self-centered smart-ass, or why you should never carry a Prada bag to the unemployment office: A Memoir. And it’s exactly what you’ll find inside the book, but in a very comical [mostly because it isn't happening to you] sort of way. She can spend and smart-ass her way out of just about anything. Very interesting read. I look forward to her second book, which ironically is next on my list.

3. Bright Lights, Big Ass, by Jen Lancaster. Again, as her first book, I think it can be summed up with the full title: Bright Lights, Big Ass: A self-indulgent, surly ex-sorority girl’s guide to why it often sucks in the city, or who are these idiots and why do they live next door to me?

4. Hunting and Gathering, by Anna Gavalda. As I have not read this one yet, I’ll just post the synopsis. Camille is doing her best to disappear. She barely eats, works at night as a cleaner, and lives in a tiny attic room. Philibert Marquet de La Durbelliere is a stammering, erudite aristocrat who sells postcards outside a museum. One eveing, he overcomes his own excruciating reticence to rescue Camille, unconscious, from her freezing garret, and install her in the large, ornate apartment he is taking care of downstairs. he alrady has an unlikely flatmate – the foulmouthed, talented you chef Franck, who is made more obnoxious by guilt about h is beloved granmother – who in turn forms an unlikely bond with his new friends. Apart, they may be hopeless, but together, this curious, damaged little quartet may be able to face the world. –Could be a little cheesy, but I’m willing to take the risk and read it anyway.

5. Bride Island, by Alexandra Enders. Again, I haven’t read it yet, so here you go: Six years ago, Polly Birdswell made a decision that changed her life forever. Now, long after having pulled herself out of an all-consuming alcoholic depression, she has remade her life in a small coastal town in Maine close to Bride Island, the beloved family retreat she considers her true home. As her future opens to new possibilities, Polly desperately wants to regain custody of her young daughter and its determined to prove – to herself especially- that she’s a stable and loving mother. But can she overcome a past that her family and friends seem determined to repeat? — Definite potential.

5. The Chronicles of Narnia, by C.S.Lewis. Ah, the old classic. Well, actually, I figured that since I hadn’t actually ever read them before, I’d brush up on my Narnia knowledge before the next movie came out, that way I can tell you exactly what was wrong with it.

18
Dec
07

’tis the season…

So, I realize the silence has not been broken. Until now. Things are starting to look up. To give just a few updates, Thanksgiving was good. We spent it with my family in po-dung country. It was a little strange, however, since my grandparents weren’t there. The Saturday after, however, I had to shoot a wedding in Colorado Springs. Now, they knew for a fact I do NOT want to shoot weddings for a living. I think I would rather scoop elephant poop. But I did it for two reasons:

1. We really needed the money with Christmas coming up and the trip to see D’s family.

2. The groom is a semi-distant relative who is a professional photographer who was willing to let me do a little assisting for him and more or less show me the ropes.

Why was I so down about it then? Well, he didn’t mention that the bride was a photographer, too. And although I had mention that I was only in my second quarter of studies, I got a pretty harsh review after the photos had been presented. I was more or less told I had no talent and no chance in the photography business. Needless to say, I took it pretty harshly. I was feeling like I couldn’t accomplish anything at that point, so why continue. However, I stuck to my guns and finished out the quarter.

This quarter turned out to be very eye-opening for me. Not only did I realize that I love doing editorial and studio work, I realized that I could do this. I’ve always been passionate about photography, but this quarter really confirmed it for me that this really is what I want to do for a living. College the first time put doubts in my head as to weather or not school was really even for me or not. I found out it actually was.

As a matter of fact, I just got done checking my grades. They were finally posted today, since finals ended on Friday. I got all A’s, and kept my 3.9 GPA. I made the Dean’s List! Oh, and did I mention I also had perfect attendance?

I did keep my streak going, though. Second to last week of the quarter, I got sick again. Now, if you’ll remember, last time I got that viral pharyngitis crap that gave me ear infections and the whole works. It wasn’t as bad this time, but again had impeccable timing. I hope my body won’t go against me like this every quarter. No, at least this time I just got the hives and had a neck the size of an elephants trunk. It was an interesting feeling, but not one I’d ever like to have again.

So now, I’m enjoying my Christmas break: Reading (already read two books, and we’re only 3 days in), putting in extra hours at work, and just really enjoying being at home. I haven’t been able to keep my house this clean in weeks! Christmas is now right around the corner, a week from today, to be exact. Still seems a little early, but we’re ready for it, I think. All but one present has arrived and is wrapped and ready to go. I’m excited about getting to see D’s family. We haven’t seen them since we moved, well other than quick weekend trips down there (one made by each of us on seperate occasions – and for business). Sophie is talking up a storm and potty trained now, too! Life is moving way too fast.

I’ve been listening to a lot of music lately. Mostly Christmas, but there is one song in particular that I keep coming back to. Yours to Hold, by Skillet. It’s almost like I’m living the words lately, but I’m forgetting to listen to them. Does that even make sense?

I see you standing here
But you’re so far away
Starving for your attention
You don’t even know my name
You’re going through so much
But I know that I could be the one to hold you

Every single day
I find it hard to say
I could be yours alone
You will see someday
That all along the way
I was yours to hold

I’m stretching but you’re just out of reach
You should know
I’m ready when you’re ready for me
And I’m waiting for the right time
For the day I catch your eye
To let you know
That I’m yours to hold

I guess I’m just struggling with my faith lately, and not really sure how to get it back. I just feel stuck. I’m sure I’ll eventually find my way…